Masih dan mampu

Airmata tak henti mengalir
Namun aku tetap di sini.
Hati dan perasaan kerap terguris
Namun aku tetap setia.
Kata-kata sering menghiris
Namun kebenarannya ku terima.

Kerana kehormatan masih terjaga
Kerana maruah masih terpelihara
Kerana cinta masih ada
Kerana hati masih miliknya.

Kerana itu
Masih dan mampu
Bertahan.

That thing on my arm

I'm beginning to really hate my handbag. Really. I mean i truly, deeply love the people who gave it to me. They actually read my mind as i was actually looking for a new sling bag to bring to work. And when i first got it, i really loved it. 


That was before the cute little sling thingy turned into a monster that ate eveything i put in it lah kan. I mean, it wasn't really that big a bag eh. My longchamp bag (ko nak la jugak designer name drop kan maria?) is loads bigger kan? My bag is just a simple 2 compartment, 1 zippered small slip in the middle. Not too deep, but it ain't so shallow either. Just nice lah bak kata modern yuppy girls gitu.


Tapi. 
Ya, ada tapinya.

Amazingly, whatever i put in the bag seems to go missing. Sometimes after awhile, sometimes immediately.
The other day I could have sworn I put a my ciggies in it. I mean, i took the pack out, put a lighter in it, and put it back right on top so that when i got to my smoking spot i could, you know, just reach out and take the pack. dah la usually i am in a rush, just to lepas gian orang kata. take a few puffs and then get back in to wherever i was. 


but nooooo.


Puas laaaaa ai korek korek the bag all. Non ado. korek bag je dah 10 minit ni. found my wallet, my phone, my sweets, everything else except the ciggies. I had to close the bag, take a deep breath, and do a second korek. BARU JUMPA. right at the bottom lah kan. HOW it got to the bottom when i remembered putting it at the top is totally beyond my comprehension. really. by that time, all i have time for is a few puffs lah kan? keji.


And this would happen to whatever item i was looking for at that particular time. if i was looking for my phone, i would keep finding my ciggies. even that bagak purse pun boleh hilang jugak dalam black hole tu. boleh jumpa sweet wrapper, tiket bas (tapi rm50 tak pernah pulak terjumpa, heran betul) tapi purse tak jumpa. ada logik ka?


I sometimes wonder if there's a mischievous imp living in my bag. so much so that there was one time that i yelled (out of hearing and vision of the public, lest they would think i need to be carted away in a straight jacket) 'bagi balik barang aku boleh tak mangkuk?'


Drama la tu kan.


Or maybe my bag is like that carpet bag that Mary Poppins has you know? the bottomless kind where she used to pull out of sorts of things like armchair, dressing table etc etc? tapi bila ai sumbat all sorts of things in it, not much la you know, like one diet pepsi can, two phones, mini ashtray, 3 packs of ciggies. tak boleh tutup plak. and weighs macam i bawak bongkah emas.


or maybe, just maybe, in a parallel world where there is another me, just as hot and gorgeous and successful (ko kena la jugak promosi diri kan maria??) who has that very same bag, and at that very same time reaches out for her ciggies. lepas tu ter-seluk pulak MY bag in MY world. tu yang asek tak jumpa je my stuff tu. The other me had that very same thought at that very same time, except she was quicker, so she got the good stuff. *enter lagu twilight zone, lagu star wars bagai*


*sigh*.


I'm just gonna go have a ciggy while i reflect this mysterious phenomenon.


Bagiiii laaaa balekkkk lighter akuuuuuu mangkukkkkkkk! *korek2 bag untuk kesekian kalinya*

you ada webcam?

<cintaberahi> i
<selasih72> hi
<cintaberahi> peng ke les
<selasih72> awek peng
<cintaberahi> u kt mn ni
<selasih72> kat umah peng i la
<selasih72> napa
<cintaberahi> ooo
<cintaberahi> i les
<selasih72> u peng ke girl?
<selasih72> ooo ok

<cintaberahi> peng u mana
<selasih72> ada ni
<selasih72> tgk i chat
<selasih72> napa
<cintaberahi> jom ym
<selasih72> ym tu apa?
<cintaberahi> yahoo messenger
<selasih72> oph
<selasih72> tak tau
<cintaberahi> notebook u ada webcam?
<selasih72> notebook?
<selasih72> i pakai pc
<cintaberahi> ok
<cintaberahi> pc u ada webcam?
<selasih72> tak ada
<cintaberahi> lorrr
<selasih72> kenapa?

<cintaberahi> i nak webcam sex ngn u berdua
<selasih72> sorry
<selasih72> we dont do that
<selasih72> agak gersang u ni ye
<cintaberahi> ok
<cintaberahi> begitula
<selasih72> kesian
<selasih72> sorry not interested
<cintaberahi> xper
<selasih72> sila la cari org lain
<cintaberahi> ok

Boleh kan dek non?
boleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeehhhhh.